Do you ever have one of those days where everything is going smoothly? The air is crisp, the sun is shining, and everything is going your way, and your day couldn’t be more perfect?
Then, all of a sudden out of nowhere, something triggers your brain, and your perfect moment of your perfect day is squashed! Something triggered a memory from your past and you didn’t even see it coming.
“What was the trigger?” You think to yourself. You have no idea. It just came out of nowhere.
But what you do know, is that that memory is ruining your day. It feels wrong. It hurts. It brings you down from a place of safety and security, to a place of pain and torture. And all the pep talks in the world couldn’t make it go away.
So you cry. A lot. You breathe heavy. You do everything in your power to make it stop, but it’s force is more powerful than your peptalk’s and your breathing. You have no choice but to surrender to it. You let it overtake you. And once it’s left you feeling like you’re nothing, it leaves… like a freight train that ran through your soul.
This “moment ” has a name. It’s called posttraumatic stress disorder and it is very real. You don’t have to be in the military, or partake in a dangerous job, or live a dangerous lifestyle for PTSD to live in your life. It comes to those who live ordinary lives. Who have ordinary jobs, and do ordinary things that make them happy.
It happens all of us from time-to-time. All of us; weather we had a traumatic experience, watched something happen that we had no control over, etc.
I still have flashbacks every now and then from when my son was in the hospital. It was a horrible two weeks of my life that I will never forget, but the way I handle it, requires some feel-good music that I always have on hand, and it makes me want to dance (and I force myself to dance), a wonderful support system, and now, a four-legged furry friend that belongs to my son.
But there is help out there for those of you that can’t shake it. When you need more than just music and love. Please visit http://www.ptsd.va.gov or call 1-888-997-3147